It has been about two months since I felt truly happy. Do not get me wrong; I did have some happy moments come up in my life like getting a new job as a Director for a child care center, but I wasn’t delighted.That “wake up and know your day is going to be a successful day” happy. I mean, I wasn’t even happy on my birthday, so what would make me think that I would ever be truly happy. Thank you so much, Depression, sis you did your thing right here! The question I keep asking myself while I try to run the batteries of my brain down, what are you looking for to make you happy? Happiness comes to people who are willing to find their happiness.
Often do we look to others to permit us to be happy. We forget that what others may discover is happiness, might not be our way of finding happiness. With me, I thought to have closer bonds with people will make my happiness meter jump off the scales. I thought by having my dad’s love, and understanding will lift this cloud of sadness. It did not. I only felt myself still seeking for more. It only was until I sat back and said that I would be fine with or without the approval of someone’s love and understanding. I start looking at everything I was blessed with. I have a wonderful and caring husband, a mother that would go to bat for me no matter the cost and friends that are willing to ride out with me if need be. I began to smile, thinking about the memories I have made with them, and it lifted my cloud.
When you have a moment where the cloud of sadness began to follow you, began to sit back and think of the things you were blessed with and notice how that sadness will roll away. Keep your mind focus and know that everyone deserves their happiness in their own way and time.