Tomorrow I am going out with my dad, and I am so nervous about going. I feel like this is the first time I have ever met him. I don’t know what I want to talk about. Should I just talk about what’s going on now? Should I bring up our fight in May? I don’t know if I want to be open to letting him back in.
Ugh, this meeting would happen before my therapist appointment on the First of July. Get it together, Ari…
All I can think to myself, is that this man is my dad; why am I so nervous? I guess if your last real conversation with your dad were so awkward that you both and him paused for at least 20 seconds before you started your next subject, you would be nervous too.
I just have to do it. I have to stop overthinking this meeting. If my dad wants a true fresh start with me, I must allow him the room to do so. I cannot hold on to the past if I want to build a future father-daughter relationship with him. I have to come with an open mind and a heart to receive.