I decided that I had enough crying, and I wanted to speak to my Heavenly spirits to see what directions I needed to go. The cards I pulled fit, but I still felt hurt and anxious. As I was shuffling my cards to put them away, The Six of Swords jumped out of the deck faced upright. I began reading the message that the Heavenly Spirits wanted me to know. The line that stuck out to me was, “The Six of Swords invites you to let go of whatever is holding you back, be it from your past or your present circumstances.” Man, Heavenly Spirits, you do not play games.
I have been holding on to my exiting my Director position. I felt that I let the families down that. I was helping in that position. I felt like I let my husband, and if I did not fix the problem, he would leave (my thoughts, not his). I kept getting rejected from jobs that I knew I could do great in but was not given a chance to show them. And now I am on pins and needles because I am waiting for a job to get back to me to see if they want me, making me worry more.
After reading this message, I understand that I will not be ready for this job or any job if I keep looking behind me. I cannot fix the past. It is only up to me to leave it behind and look towards the horizon. I am tired of holding on to things that I do not need to. I am ready for these rough seas to calm down so I can enjoy what the future has for me; I am releasing myself from this baggage to see the good that is coming to me.
Thank you, Heavenly Spirits, for giving me direction. I am glad I opened myself up to you again.