Texting Anxiety

*9:00 PM

Me: Hey Anxiety. I want to tell you some good news.

Anxiety: Good news? What is it?

Me: Yes! I got a job!!! After being jobless for 3 and a half months, I got a job!

*Read at 10:30 PM

*10:50 PM

Me: Hello? Are you there?

Anxiety: Yeah.

Me: So, no good job or congrats?

Anxiety: Why would I do that?

Me: Because I got a job. Why are you acting like this?

Anxiety: LOL! Now you know this job is not going to last.

Me: Why would you say that? I really wanted this job, and I am glad that I have it.

Anxiety: Because you’re a screw-up. You will find a way to mess it up.

Me: No. This job is perfect for me.

Anxiety: Oh yeah? LOL. Okay Ari.

Me: What does that mean?

Anxiety: Ari, you are not right for this job. You always think that a job will work out and by year one you’re burned out or you dip.

Me: This job is different. This position was designed for me. My bosses love me. They made me feel like I am a part of a family.

Anxiety: Give them time. They will find out how unstable you are, and you’ll be out.

Me: That’s not true. Stop being so negative.

*Read at 11:15 PM

*12:15 AM

Me: Hello??

Anxiety: Look. Think about it; this job requires you to help people find the right job, right?

Me: Right.

Anxiety: But you don’t even know what job is right for you!

Me: I do know! The other jobs weren’t the right fit for me.

Anxiety: How do you know this job is? You really think you got it right now? Like, suddenly the right job just fell out of the sky for you?

Me: I know this is the right job for me.

Anxiety: LMAO! Girl bye!

Me: Why are you being this way? This is supposed to be a joyous time.

Anxiety: FOR WHO?? You’re going to mess up and EVERYBODY will see how much of a failure you are.

*Read at 12:25 AM

*12:45 AM

Anxiety: I got you thinking huh?

Anxiety: You know I am right.

Anxiety: Quit before they find out that you’re a fraud girl.

Me: I am NOT a fraud. I WILL NOT FAIL!

Anxiety: Are you sure? Like on a scale from 1-to 10, how sure are you?

Me: A million!

Me: I never felt so complete. I not going to let you keep me doubting myself.

Anxiety: But that’s why we are friends! I keep you freaking out until you lose your will to keep going and then you bail. I like this setup.

Anxiety: So don’t get comfy girl!

Me: ENOUGH! I am going to do great! I don’t care what you say.

Anxiety: Well, I’ll let you have your little fun. But trust me, you’ll be texting me soon about how this job was a mistake.

Me: Nah, I am done with that and with you.

Anxiety: LOL. Girl you know I am not going anywhere.

Me: That might be true, but this time I will be ready for whatever you throw my way friend.

Anxiety: We’ll see. Bye girl.

Me: Whatever. Bye.

Published by arispeaksout

Hi! I am Ari AKA Ariel Davis, and welcome to my page! I wanted to start this page to get the stigma off of mental health. As a person, that deals with mental illness, I know the importance of having someone to listen to you. Please feel free to join in the conversation! I hope you enjoy my page!

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