A December Love #7

Hun,

So I am about to be a little sappy, but I think you will like it. You blow my mind—the man of my dreams. My soul yearns for your touch. I want you every second of every day. You make my heart smile with just a look from you. I love all of you. I desire to be the best wife I can be for you. I cannot wait until I can give you a new title, Daddy. You never let me down. You are my favorite actor in my favorite movie. You are my favorite person.

I still smile hard when you call me.

Your Wife

A December Love #6

Dear Husband,

I never thought that soulmates were a thing until I met you. I thought that only the Hallmark Channel could develop a love like that. But here we are. You can sense when I am down before I can utter a word. You know how to love me without me showing you. When I feel like I am fighting alone, you come in and fight right beside me. Your character makes you stand taller than any skyscraper I have seen. With you, I have a foundation. With you, I have a home.

You are all that and then some.

Your Wife

A December Love #5

In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours. In all the world, there is no love for you like mine” -Maya Angelou

 

Hun,

 

I am happy to call you my husband. I never felt this connection with anyone. All I can feel is butterflies when you touch me. On the coldest nights, you keep me warm. You are my knight when I need saving from myself. When the dragon of sadness tries to surround its body around me, you come in and slay it. Without any fear, you take me good and bad. And I love you for that. Your voice calms any doubts. When I see you, I turn into that 21 years old girl who knew that she got herself a winner. Thank you for being my partner and my best friend. Thank you for all the times you held me when I couldn’t sleep. Thank you for sacrificing to make our lives better. Thank you for all the times you pushed me to be better. I couldn’t imagine a better person to have around me but you. What we have is what I hope our children could be proud of.

 

Our hearts beat as one.

 

Your Wife

A December Love #4

Dear Love,

Thank you for loving and respecting me. Thank you for loving harder when I feel less than loving. Thank you for allowing me to vent when I am angry. Thank you for holding me when I am feeling lonely. Thank you for being quick to forgive and slow to anger. You say everything without saying a word because your actions speak for themselves. You never cease to amaze me. You are truly my Prince Charming. I could wake up and fall for you over and over like Groundhogs Day. You are my calm to my storm. You are my secret space. I feel like a sunny day when I see you. You will never know how much I love you, and I cannot get enough of you.

I am still crushing over you.

Your Wife

A December Love #3

Dear Husband,

What words could I use to describe how I feel about you? I could say that you make me feel protected when I am around you. Or I could say that your presence reminds me of a time when life was simple. You are my favorite song on repeat. I cannot get enough of hearing you. Even on my lowest days, I know I can find love with you. You are the place I go to when I want to hide. You are the reason that I believe that good people still exist. Home is wherever we are. Our love is like a sweet fragrance. I love waking up with you. Being your wife is one of the best decisions I made.

Thankful for you always

Your Wife

A December Love #2

Hey Love,

To be your wife is such an amazing ride. We laugh, we share fears, and we grow. And when there are moments where we struggle, we remind each other of the reason why we got married, and those storms roll away. No marriage is perfect, but ours is a perfect fit. You make it easy for me to be myself. I can take the mask off and just be me with open arms and a warm smile. When I am not around you, I feel like I’m missing something. We were meant to share the same space. You are my soulmate. You are my best friend. You are my lover. You are my husband. There has never or never will be a man who makes me feel the way you do. I will ride to the ends of the Earth and back with you forever. You are my Pilot, and I am your co.

Love you forever plus ten more.

Your Wife

A December Love #1

My 4th wedding anniversary is coming up on December 22nd, and what would be a great way to celebrate it by writing a love letter each day to my husband? So that is what I am doing! Here it goes:

Honey,

From the first day we shared space, I knew I loved you. The way you listened to me and looked at me, I knew you felt the same way. There is never a time that goes by that I don’t think about that first day. You are so patient with me, and you always make me feel safe. I love how, on my lowest days, you still love me. Our love is something that I have always prayed for. I thank God for you. Thank you for taking this journey with me.

I love you always

You Wife

Sweet Escape

I want to run away

To an undisclosed location

A location that has no stress

No sadness

No worries

Only hope

It would be a great release

Relaxation

Happiness

Peace

Sweet escape

Baby Come Soon

I held a baby Friday, and my anxiety went haywire. Will I ever have a baby? Will I feel that feeling of holding my own baby? Every day I see my chances for having a baby slowly fade away. I know there will be a few of you who will say, “it will happen one day.” or say, “don’t give up on your dream.” And I would like to thank you for the encouragement, but my anxiety and depression do not care about what you think (please do not judge me for that thought). I see the joy and the fullness a child can bring to your life, and I want that. Is that hard to get? Do I deserve that feeling? I battle with the pressure of not knowing if or when I will have a child. I see a baby, and the tears begin to pour down my face like a summer rainstorm. I want the fullness; I want the feeling of unconditional love. I want to see a baby with skin like mine and eyes like my husband. I want to watch them grow. God, I desire motherhood. When will that day come? Please be soon.

What Not to Say

There are days that I cannot stop myself from speaking badly about myself. I will dump some of the rudest things that I say to myself to erase them from my mind. Please note that I do not want anyone using these horrible statements.

• Your goals are not obtainable

• You are lazy

• No one sees value in you

• You just sleep your life away

• You are not smart

• You are wasting your time

• You cannot keep friends

• You are a nobody

• How did you make it this far

• It would help if you were further along

• You are a setback

• You have no idea of what you are doing

• Just stop while you are ahead

• It won’t work

Here’s how I fight back:

• It will work out for you

• The setback provides insight

• You are allowed to take breaks

• You are right where you need to be

• Keep going even if it takes you 100 attempts

• You deserve the good that happens to you

• You will help others succeed

• You are valuable

• You have all the time that you need to get it done

• Each day you grow smarter

I am not saying that each day I can come up with a positive thought, but I make it a point to know that I will not always have these bad days. I hope that this helps anyone who has ever told themselves that they are not good enough. You are doing great.