The Love I Want

Hun, can we talk for a moment? I know that you love me, but I want to see more. I want more adventure. I want more off the cuff. I want to be knocked off my feet. I want you to love me like you did when you first realize how much you love me.Continue reading “The Love I Want”

The Late Text

*Phone chimes* Depression: WYD? Me: Nothing. Trying to sleep. Depression: You’re lame for that. Me: How am I lame? Depression: Aren’t you sad? Me: No. Depression: SMH. Yes you are. Me: No I am not! Stop saying that I am. Depression: You’re sad AF. Just come clean. Me: Bye. Depression: You’re worthless. Depression: No oneContinue reading “The Late Text”

What I Won’t Do

What I Won’t Do Is I will not let people talk me out of my “No” I will not put myself last because it makes other people uncomfortable I will not listen to my inner critic I will not stop reaching my goals I will not let fear keep me from being my best selfContinue reading “What I Won’t Do”

Happy Birthday Ari!

Happy Birthday Ari! We made it to year 34. I know it’s been a struggle, but we are still here. I want to thank you for holding on even though it was not an easy thing to do. I want you to know that you are stronger than you think you are. Here are someContinue reading “Happy Birthday Ari!”

Missing Hope

Depression is back to sleep on my air mattress for the next few weeks rent-free. I missed him so much. NOT. I will be 34 on May 28th, and even though I have done some great things, I still feel as if I have done nothing. Like I thought by 34, I would be aContinue reading “Missing Hope”

The Handshake

Working as a Director of a childcare center, I see many touching moments parents have with their children; but this particular moment brought my little Ari out to play. One of my school-age children’s dad visits her at the center when she is not over his house for the weekend. They talked and laughed forContinue reading “The Handshake”

Sisters

I thought nothing could separate us. I thought I would be around to see your children grow up. What happened? When did we lose our bond? Our connection. We were good before 2020; what did I miss? It’s my fault that I didn’t work hard enough for us. Or maybe it was supposed to beContinue reading “Sisters”

Crying Warrior

It’s been two months since being in this depressive episode. Instead of letting it get to me, I wanted to share some affirmations that I try to use when I am depressed. I hope if you are feeling depressed, these affirmations will make it easier. -You will find your ‘why’ again -Feel your feelings -YouContinue reading “Crying Warrior”

Live! It’s My Depressive Thoughts!

Ugh! Why are you so dumb? Do better! Can you do better? No. Go to sleep. I am so tired. Drained. Loser! All you want to do is sleep. Have you done anything to earn sleep? When will you be happy again? Probably not. Whatever. I’m done being sad. Oh well. Be sad. Ugh! AnotherContinue reading “Live! It’s My Depressive Thoughts!”

2020 Recap

Since we are closing out this year, I want to ask you some questions before entering 2021. I would like the readers of this post to answer at least one of the questions in the comments below. If it helps, write down the questions before answering them. Let’s make this post an interesting one. -WhatContinue reading “2020 Recap”