Looking through His Lens

“You look nice,” “You look good.” These are a couple of phrases; my husband tells me when I wear something that blows him away. And although it is nice to hear, my anxiety will not allow me to see it. I wish that every time I see myself, I could say those phrases to myself.Continue reading “Looking through His Lens”

Release

Someone asked me what do you need to release? Here’s my list: I need to release fear I need to release anger I need to release regret I need to release shame I need to release losing friendships I need to release pain I need to release bitterness I need to release the idea ofContinue reading “Release”

What If

What if I made the wrong choice about my career? What if I am not cut out for this degree?  What if I am not as smart as my mother thinks I am? What if I was the cause of my long-term friendships ending? What if I don’t know how to communicate without getting inContinue reading “What If”

The Late Text

*Phone chimes* Depression: WYD? Me: Nothing. Trying to sleep. Depression: You’re lame for that. Me: How am I lame? Depression: Aren’t you sad? Me: No. Depression: SMH. Yes you are. Me: No I am not! Stop saying that I am. Depression: You’re sad AF. Just come clean. Me: Bye. Depression: You’re worthless. Depression: No oneContinue reading “The Late Text”

What I Won’t Do

What I Won’t Do Is I will not let people talk me out of my “No” I will not put myself last because it makes other people uncomfortable I will not listen to my inner critic I will not stop reaching my goals I will not let fear keep me from being my best selfContinue reading “What I Won’t Do”

Happy Birthday Ari!

Happy Birthday Ari! We made it to year 34. I know it’s been a struggle, but we are still here. I want to thank you for holding on even though it was not an easy thing to do. I want you to know that you are stronger than you think you are. Here are someContinue reading “Happy Birthday Ari!”

Missing Hope

Depression is back to sleep on my air mattress for the next few weeks rent-free. I missed him so much. NOT. I will be 34 on May 28th, and even though I have done some great things, I still feel as if I have done nothing. Like I thought by 34, I would be aContinue reading “Missing Hope”

Sisters

I thought nothing could separate us. I thought I would be around to see your children grow up. What happened? When did we lose our bond? Our connection. We were good before 2020; what did I miss? It’s my fault that I didn’t work hard enough for us. Or maybe it was supposed to beContinue reading “Sisters”

2020 Recap

Since we are closing out this year, I want to ask you some questions before entering 2021. I would like the readers of this post to answer at least one of the questions in the comments below. If it helps, write down the questions before answering them. Let’s make this post an interesting one. -WhatContinue reading “2020 Recap”

Are You Being Served?

I was thinking about what to write today since we are coming up to the end of the year, so let’s talk about letting go of things and people that do not serve us anymore. I know it is not a happy topic, but we need to talk about it before setting any new goalsContinue reading “Are You Being Served?”