The Storm of Tears

I sobbed today during therapy. I just felt so overwhelmed that I couldn’t help but cry. It has been so hard not being where I want to be in life. Please don’t get me wrong; I am thankful for everything I have, but I want a little more comfort. It hurts so much thinking thatContinue reading “The Storm of Tears”

2022 Rules

Listen up 2022! You just got here, so I need you to play nice, okay? I have some pointers, so you know how to handle yourself around me. 1. Do not bring up past issues. 2. Stay consistent. 3. Stay in the moment. 4. If you cannot get it done today, chill. We still haveContinue reading “2022 Rules”

Hello Goodbye 2021

Hi 2021, I want to say that you really made me work this year mentally. I honestly cannot believe that I am still standing. I was hard on myself, and I almost felt that it wasn’t a purpose for me. But thankfully, I had my angels on Earth and in Heaven to comfort me. 2021Continue reading “Hello Goodbye 2021”

Sweet Escape

I want to run away To an undisclosed location A location that has no stress No sadness No worries Only hope It would be a great release Relaxation Happiness Peace Sweet escape

Baby Come Soon

I held a baby Friday, and my anxiety went haywire. Will I ever have a baby? Will I feel that feeling of holding my own baby? Every day I see my chances for having a baby slowly fade away. I know there will be a few of you who will say, “it will happen oneContinue reading “Baby Come Soon”

What Not to Say

There are days that I cannot stop myself from speaking badly about myself. I will dump some of the rudest things that I say to myself to erase them from my mind. Please note that I do not want anyone using these horrible statements. • Your goals are not obtainable • You are lazy •Continue reading “What Not to Say”

Release

Someone asked me what do you need to release? Here’s my list: I need to release fear I need to release anger I need to release regret I need to release shame I need to release losing friendships I need to release pain I need to release bitterness I need to release the idea ofContinue reading “Release”

Welcome Back

Hey Panic! It’s been a while since we saw each other. How have you been? What have you been doing? What made you come to see me? I thought we were over? I didn’t think I would see you again, but here you are. Causing every muscle to stiff up in my body. What canContinue reading “Welcome Back”

What If

What if I made the wrong choice about my career? What if I am not cut out for this degree?  What if I am not as smart as my mother thinks I am? What if I was the cause of my long-term friendships ending? What if I don’t know how to communicate without getting inContinue reading “What If”

The Late Text

*Phone chimes* Depression: WYD? Me: Nothing. Trying to sleep. Depression: You’re lame for that. Me: How am I lame? Depression: Aren’t you sad? Me: No. Depression: SMH. Yes you are. Me: No I am not! Stop saying that I am. Depression: You’re sad AF. Just come clean. Me: Bye. Depression: You’re worthless. Depression: No oneContinue reading “The Late Text”